“like taking a shower and putting your dirty clothes back on.
like having a craving, not sure what for and in turn eating everything that is appealing. only to come to the disappointing realization that the craving hasn’t been satisfied.
like going shopping and realizing that u couldnt care less if those bags fell out of the trunk.
like an insomniac tortured by the infomercials on at 2am yet restrained by a force which prevents him from changing the channel, switching it off or performing any other act to make it stop.
secretly wishing for a natural disaster to impose a change upon us all. all of those around me need to wake up. splashed with water. adrenaline syringe to the heart. x marks the spot.
staying in hotels for years on end without reaping the benefits of having cleaning ladies. feeling violated when someone attempts to help manage the chaos.
what comes after anticipation. that brief moment in time. the realization that ur expectations were not met.
it is those things that add up to give me the apathy which in turn clouds my judgement.”—-dirrrtydollhaus